I have been dealing with this for years and have finally decided now is the time. After this past Saturday, I need to do it. I was at work and my little sister stopped in to see me. Well she was with my Birth Mom. We DO NOT talk. Never calls to talk to my boys, say happy birthday, see how they are doing in school or anything. Tells everyone that its me that we are not talking or getting along. I wont play the game. She was with my sister and didn't even say "hi or anything to me" standing right in front of me her daughter/1st born. With this happening I'm going to sit down adn write all my feeling out to her. I'm sick of the game she plays. I'm so hurt. I was abused in every way possible by her 1st husband. She did nothing to protect me when I finally told her. She in fact chose him over ME her daughter. Told me I would never graduate, have a baby before I was 18 and that she should of given me up/aborted me. I was just a mistake. I proved her all wrong on these mean and hurtful things she use to say to me. Blamed me for her marriage breaking up. Put a huge wedge between me and my birth father. That's why I don't have him in my life today. She sees nothing wrong from her end its all me in her eyes. I'm so sick of the hurt and pain. I need to sit and get it out. I'm not going to allow her to hurt me, Neal or my boys any longer. I mean come on she hasn't seen my boys in 2 years. They never even got a phone call, birthday card or Christmas cards from her.
Some people just don't know all the hurt and pain I have had to deal with over the years. My boys are my life and I would never let anything come between me and them. This is why it hurts so bad that my oldest Austin is moving out to his dad's on June 5th. I am just in pieces deep down inside.
Sorry I am going on and on about this but I'm so hurt. Don't know what or were to turn
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6 comments:
((HUGS!!)) I'm sorry you're going through this.
Sending a big hug... I'm so sorry you are hurting.
Sounds like cutting ties is going to be healthy for you. Blessings to you and your adorable family.
OH hon... I can very much relate.. I have no relationship with my mother.. not for 8 years... she's just a mean manipulative person.. and I finally broke free from her abuse and it feels GREAT!!
You my dear are a TREASURE!!! don't let anyone else tell you different... YOU are a MOM and much NEEDED ..WANTED .. MOM and WIFE... you were made to be with your husband and with you children... You are worth more than many rubies or diamonds that add up...
don't let anyone else tell you any different.. YOU are NOT a failure.. not in the least!!
gf, i can relate as well.. I had to cut ties with my earthly father. I had to .. for my own happiness and survival. Surround yourself with balcony ppl.. remember that! hugs
Maureen, I'm so sorry you're hurting so bad. I second what FlipFlopMom said about you being WANTED, NEEDED and LOVED. Your family needs you to be healthy and strong and if that means not having a relationship with your mom, then that might be a good thing. Only you know what's best for you. In a perfect world, she would realize how precious you are and would want to rebuild a relationship with you, but that might never happen, so you need to start the healing and the forgiving process on your own. Forgiveness is not a feeling or an emotion that you'll "feel" when you say "I forgive you mom" but instead it can be a life long journey to decide to let go of the pain and embrace forgiveness, not for her sake, but for yours. You're brave, you're courageous and you're a survivor. Stay strong my friend.
(((HUGS)))
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